Party time!

Hey guys. 

It's been a few days now an my birthday is in less that 4 days!! I am so excited!

Today I went to a party for my friend who hates my name! It was so fun. I hung out with my best friend called sharlie and it was awesome 

I am excited for my new YouTube videos! I have a vlog that needs to be edited and uploaded and I have a datgalmaddies daily life video which will be uploaded in a few days! I just wanted to say thank you for all the positive feedback on my videos, it is much appreciated. I know I am one of the only people reading this but thanks anyway.

Thanks guys bye 

Update: July 22nd

We'll guys, a lot have happened since my last blog. It's my birthday next Wednesday! I got a new phone, new Fish and I have thought more about myself as a person and I have not yet made any progress but I am just sorting stuff out. I also got glandular fever and I am at home right now having a sick day. I have recently started to read the book the fault in our stars it is so good. I love the story and all the characters, I haven't seen the movie yet. 

I really do admire John Green the author because he invented the vlog brothers and vidcon along with his brother Hank Green. One of my dreams is to go to vidcon as the YouTuber are not as a fan and be admired just as much as I admire the YouTubers such as zoella, tanyaburr, Tyler Oakley, missstephrosa, thatcherjoe, connorfranta and many more.

The book has a lot about metaphors which I don't know many so it is really interesting to see different types of metaphors and languages. 

Today I left school at lunchtime and I had KFC lunch It was really yummy I had some popcorn chicken and chips and a chicken Burger with coke. 

Right now I am not typing this blog I am using Siri and speaking because it is much easier and faster. If you watch my YouTube channel and then you will know that I just spent two days at one of the islands with my best friend Steph it was really fun we did lots of photography stuff and we had a great time just being together. 

Today at school when I was walking past a big group of people I realise something about myself. I'm sure many other people I like this to but when there is a group of people I walk in the opposite direction, or find a short cut to avoid the living. It's funny that I feel better in huge groups of people at lunch or at a party and I love attention but then other times I like living like a hermit. 

I love the whole idea and the storyline of the fault in our stars it's really clever and there are a lot of books like it but not as good as it. I hope that you all have had a great week last week and you're ready for a week of fun and excitement. 

Wisdom time:

Here is something that I learnt very early on this week, do you have a dream? or something that you want to achieve? of course you do everyone does but if you can't picture yourself doing it or imagining yourself doing it you will never achieve it. As they say to achieve big, you have to dream big. Now I know it sounds cliche but it is the absolute, hundred percent truth. Say you have a dream of becoming I don't know of rockstar, well, if you automatically think in your brain I could never see myself being a rock star in 100 years, then it simple you're not going to become a rockstar. If your brain and your mind think the same and you believe you can be or do what you want to do, it will happen.

-I learnt this from the Shaytards

Sorry about not blogging for a long time as I got a new iPhone 4s the App did not carry over. I hope that you enjoyed this blog I will be trying to blog from now on once a day, thank you to MissStephRosa for reminding me to blog I totally forgot.

 Hope that you guys enjoyed this blog if you want to read more go back and read some of my old entries. Thank you for reading, please comment your thoughts so I can get an indication of what you guys think of my blogs. 

Love Datgalmaddie x

The fault in our stars

At the island with Steph

My new fish!! 

Bye 

More

Dear myself and readers,

I don't know if I am lying to myself or to everyone else, I am trying to explain to people but the only person that will listen is my mum, in the next couple of weeks she said I could see a coniziolygist (Therapist) 

I am telling even more lies today, I am blocking people, texts, calls, face times, because I don't feel that I should speak to anyone.

As I said yesterday, I am a stranger to my friends, best friends ad just people who think they know me. 

I'm just joking, it's a lie, for 8 years I have been playing a character, her name is Maddie and she looks like me and sounds like me, and she likes the same things as me but no one would know the difference, not even my closest friends. 

I hve been given some really good advice to float around to other groups. But I have already messed up my relationship with them. I can't be me because of judgement, I wear makeup and people wonder why...

As Vivian says, lies are more interesting than the truth, and I have myself believing it. The saddest part is, half of what I say is a lie, at school I get caught out, by my friends, and teachers and people laugh at me.

I don't do well in my subjects too, because I try and bond with people in class or just don't listen because my brain is thinking what I can come up with to say at lunch, most things I say are a lie, I would lie to something as simple as, what is your favourite colour. It's just hard . 

Thanks for reading if you did, I really appreciate it.

Mainly the point of this is just for me to let it out and to figure out why I am so miserable. 

Everyone thinks I am silly, strong, courageous and the sort of person who doesn't care about anything or other people, it's funny that I started to believe it too...

School life

I don't know about you but school isn't my favourite place in the world, te teachers, the uniforms, the buildings and the people. The many things that let it down. 

Recently I have started to sit with a group, because my best friend wanted to sit with them and I realised, I will be so alone if she goes. I have to sit with them so I don't get lonely. I keep faking and faking to try and be who they want me to be, how to make myself more interesting, it's getting me into trouble at school and at home. The way I act around others is not the way I would normally act around myself. And now I have ruined so many friendships and relationships because of it. Know one really knows who I am, or how I would really act, because it's just fake, not even my best friend know. It's gotten so bad, I lie about almost everything, I am truthful at home and to my family, but at school.. It's a whole other story.

So this new term, I am going to sit alone, and focus on my studies and just get through the day and then go home. It's not because in making school into a negative thing, it's because I don't know how to start over. I say to my friends, " I'm going to act nice," then they laugh and discourage me when to be honest. Legit, they don't know me! I try but I have myself now believing this is who I am, and it's not.

I am just going to focus on my school work and my study for now, but I don't have anyone to sit with for now, because it's too late they already know me, and my friends don't think I'm the sort of person to feel like this, but they don't understand..

July 6th, and 7th

Hey guys,

It's my birthday coming up and you know how all the popular girls hae big parties? Well I want one.. Even though in not popular.. But then on the other gab I don't. I believe the perfect party is a cake, some decorations, music and friends and family. No big fancy parties with a DJ and lights and lots of food. Just something simple like maybe even going out for dinner or to the city. Something that shows class, or is unique. 

I really don't know how to blog, I can vlog (video blog) but blogging is just way out of my comfort zone.

July 6th: today I had a quiet day at home, I blogged in my YouTube channel called, datgalmaddie. I made some fruit salad and I went to my friends house and slept the night.

July 7th: today I spent most of the day at my friends house then I came home at 1:00pm and washed my dog. I then had some yummy pizza lunch and then a chicken in white wine sauce for dinner followed by a muffin and donut for desert! 

Girls Day with My Mum

Today,
I went shopping with my mum, just us too. I have a younger brother and sister and it was really nice to spend some quality time with my mum. If you have brothers or sisters I'd suggest spending one on one time with your mum, dad or guardian so that you can bond and learn more about each other.

We went to many shops such as, factorie, priceline, equip, Max Brenner, ice, ally, lush, target, channel, napoleon perdis and typo.

I will be answering and questions that you guys have, giving advice and providing links to blogs that I enjoy.


Check out MissStephRosa: http://lifeofstephanie093.blogspot.com.au/

Introduction

I don't know how to start these things, I have never done a blog before and I don't know what to write about, but here I go...

Hi,

My name is Maddie, I am a teenage girl and I have a lot of opinions and thoughts. As a young girl I always pictured myself as an intellegent, pretty, and kind girl when I'm a teenager, but I don't think I'm really any of those things. Everyone has good qualities and bad qualities, but quite frankly I haven't found my good qualities yet. I always discover my bad ones at the most inconvenient times ever!

Here's my question, why are we here? Why are we put on this earth? Well I don't know and no one else does. But I want to make a mark, be known and do something with my life I make a difference! I want to be on my deathbed and say to my children, grandchildren and even great grandchildren, "I lived...."

But I am a typical girl, I like shoes, clothes, makeup, flowers, animals, food, jewellery and sleepover parties, but I am quite a tomboy. I enjoy sport and video games and other things like that but that just makes up who I am. 

"I won't be who everyone expects me to be, do what everyone expects me to do, or say what everyone expects me to say, because that's simply not me."

-datgalmaddie

Thankyou for reading this introduction blog, that's just a bit about me and how I see the world. Thanks guys 

Bye xx